Thoughts...

By Onuzulike Somtochukwu


There are simple questions like why do we yawn? Why do we cry? Why do we smile? Why do we love? Only to hate… why do we accord so much congruity to things that don’t matter… we build armors… walls around us daily shielding  us from the things that matter most and leaving us vulnerable to the things that we assume matters but really do not.
When I was younger, an old man once said to me now you’re young all you see is up-close that is the future, but when you get old all you see is far away that is the past…explain further I implored but he never did..I understand perfectly now  for I am old and frail myself.
The average African man isn’t allowed to show emotions, it’s seen as weakness… ‘You mustn’t cry.. Men don’t cry’ their fathers teach them, just as they themselves were thought. You must be a man and to be a man you shouldn’t show emotions!its unbecoming! I don’t know if they teach them right, for I don’t know which is right..some say we aren’t wired to feel, or express, I really do not know.. but I do know that I feel, I also know  that I would have loved to feel more connection with my own father, he was always available yet unavailable,…its really simple to Men.. go out, labor daily bring back food for the family.. other things are meant  for the mother…especially when it involves emotions… whoever said we don’t need our fathers too
We are all progressing towards one direction DEATH! …And we’ll only be lucky enough to get old before dying …some of us are cut short at prime.. if you are still breathing then you’re the lucky one...because most of us are dead and gone leaving behind a trail of regrets, we are only sure of the breath we take now, we can as well make each breath count. I know we never feel up to it.. no one ever feels up to it.. we all have our doubts.. and fears..and addictions that stops us..it limits us from exploring to our maximum potential but in us is also the ability to soar…
It doesn’t hurt to shed a few tears…
What’s the fuss?  Everything we need, we already have.. We just have to start appreciating and stop wanting…
Life is really simple if we LIVE simply…. In the end, LOVE and FAMILY is all that matters..it is truly all that counts..it is what defines us, it is  the last thought we’ll have before we die.. and it is with them we leave the best memories...and what is life without memories?
Emptiness…