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Sunday, 29 January 2017

THE END AS IT WAS 2




A  story written by Onuzulike Somtochukwu

I looked into his dark eyes again and wished someone will wake me up from this horrible dream, but no one did.


What seemed like such a horrible nightmare was in fact reality. I prayed desperately to whomever that was listening. Not for food or water, not for the warmth of the sun, not even for light, I prayed that I’ll shut my eyes and when I re-open it all be a horrible nightmare. I sat there with my eyes shut, and then I heard him yell ‘come brother!’
I opened my eyes immediately and realized he had since left the car, and was standing on a pile of what seemed like a rock near our fire. I struggled to stand and my head resumed its frantic pounding. I held my head as if to steady it and slowly made my way towards him.
‘Is that light I see?’ He asked, pointing to the sky.
I looked up squinting to see clearly.
‘That looks like a star’ I replied my heartbeat quickening.
‘Or maybe not,’ he said. The excitement I heard in his voice when he called out was replaced by same old hopelessness. He came down from pile of rock, and moved closer to the fire adding a couple of already half burnt wood and a handful of rubbish. I walked back to the car and sank into the seat, soon sleep dragged me under.




It has been quite a while now, perhaps weeks or even months. There was no way of counting. I know because more lights or stars appeared in the sky giving us hope. Sometimes hope is seen as weakness, as a delusion, but it’s this hope that lets us survive. It’s this hope that lets us bend but remain unbroken. It’s our hope that makes us human. The journey to find food has become dreary, we go deeper exploring places we dared not go to before and come back empty. Bello is giving up I can see It in his eyes. He barely talks to me now, just the usual grunt. If we don’t find food anytime soon we wouldn’t survive. I have to find food I have to explore more, and I have to go alone to make it faster. As I made this decision, I looked at Bello to make sure he was still fast asleep. Slowly I opened the car door, taking the huge stick we carved out to aid in walking, the pen knife Bello had found and other necessities. I started my journey hoping that before Bello wakes I’ll be back. I trudged on and on deeper and deeper into the dark. The stars in the sky were my only comfort. I had gone for this same food hunting severally with him but it felt different now, I was free! Stopping to light my stick and explore when I want without the older man’s disapproving glance or irritating grunt. The man I had seen when I opened my eyes was gone. The man who called me brother is now replaced by an old lost being, my heart contracted involuntarily. I walked on, I had somehow stopped myself from thinking of what I was before now, who I was, were and how I lived. The basic knowledge of things had since returned, but how I got that knowledge I can’t tell. Where they people who cared about me? I shook my head blocking out those thoughts.
Shfrrrrrr! A shuffling sound! I froze for a moment.
 I looked around slowly and realized I was so lost in my reverie that I hadn’t noticed my surroundings. I quickly lighted my stick, Bello and I never explored up to here, we mainly looked for burnt shops avoiding the main routes. Once i asked that we go further there might be help, we might find people, he shook his head gravely, saying ‘brother, believe me it’s just us now or maybe some creatures of the dark but no human.’  I never brought that up again but look at here! I marveled, I was in a place that looked like the heart of a city. The road though big holes and cracks were on them you could see they were different, not dusty but dark and hard. Asphalt! My brain registered. I moved closer lifting up my lighted stick and taking in everything I could see in one glance. Destroyed buildings; in some only pillars were standing, metallic junk of what would have been cars by the side. Then I heard the sound again. The first tiny niggle of fear crept up my spine, I looked around but there was no one in sight. I moved to the destroyed houses and climbed behind them, blowing off my light, I bent and listened.
Nothing

I tip toed on, hoping to come across food soon, my nerves were jumpy but I continued. I walked on and on, sometimes feeling everywhere with my hands and making a mental calculation of how many turns I had taken. Just then I saw it! Green pair of eyes like two emerald lights was just ahead of me! Few yards away, it was moving! I felt blood drain out of my face and a sick knot of fear somewhere in my intestine. I didn’t realize I had stopped breathing too until my chest threatened to burst open. My first thought was to light up my stick, but if I did that I would be giving myself away. Maybe the creature whatever it was hasn’t sensed my presence yet. I slowly tried to tiptoe back, I thought of Bello and how right he was, then the creature cried.
Or rather it was a meow, I lighted my stick with little effort, it was startled and ran a cat! I almost laughed in relief. I knelt there for a moment then it registered, if a cat survived this, then it’s not just me and Bello! There could be other people! I was almost sure of it. My strength was renewed by this realization and I continued on my quest this time more boldly, I climbed from behind the destroyed buildings and moved to the open. After I had walked for a while, I noticed a scrawling on the wall of one of the buildings. I moved closer.

LASTDAYS CHURCH.                                                                                            
 no.  6 adeyopo avenue

I stood there for a while, examining it. Whoever wrote this wrote it after the sun died not before. The scrawl was fresh and was done hastily and it was on top of the soot. The soot would have covered it if it was written before, energy surged through my veins, adrenaline sizzled as different possibilities came floating in my head, I had new purpose not just to take back food to Bello but good news! But first I have to find this address. I half ran, half walked searching wildly for any clue. I found more of the scrawling on different half destroyed buildings, there was no hope of food in sight, but the joy in my heart was indescribable, I searched on, following the writings and lighting up my stick when it burns off, finally it stopped.  I had gone past four buildings with no writings. I traced back to the last one, it was a huge building that looked like it had either been a bank or a huge store. It stood stronger than the others but also burnt. I walked in, nothing, no one was here. I called out, no answer.
As I turned to leave, I caught a movement; a figure was half hidden in the shadows. I felt the icy cold fingers of fear again gripping my heart, and my heart in response thundered loudly that I feared the empty hall would echo it.
Hello! I called out again.
The figure came out from the shadow, male from the shape and size of it. Fear won me over, my knees became weak. As the figure made its way towards me, I clutched the pen knife. Subsequently the light started going dim, it was burning out. Panic seized me I dropped the pen knife to reach for the lighter in my pocket, just then a powerful light flashed, torchlight. The figure spoke.
‘Who you be?’ he asked in a fluent pidgin English.
‘I  amm am sorryyy,’ I stuttered. ‘I saw the address.’
He came closer, with my light gone I couldn’t see him, the flashlight blinded me.
‘Oh sorry’ he retorted noticing I was uncomfortable and pointed the beam upwards.
Then I saw him, he was young, a pallid face without emotions, his eyes didn’t seem to suit his young face, it told a tale of anguish, suffering and pain.
‘My name is Tunde’ he said. Not waiting to hear my reply he moved and beckoned on me to follow, I did relieved that I didn’t have to answer him. How was I supposed to explain that I don’t recall my own name? As we walked down a flight of half destroyed stairs, I noticed he had a limping gait. Then we arrived in front of an iron door. He dragged it open, there was more stairs beneath like we were going underground.
 Then he stopped abruptly and asked ‘did you see any other survivors?’
‘No’ I replied in a strange voice I hardly recognized as mine. Then I told him about Bello and the journey /quest for food.
‘We are around 20 here’ he replied pushing another iron door.
We were ushered into a big hall, bright as I haven’t seen in a while. Candles were lighted everywhere, and people sat around in a circle, laughing, talking. Soon silence ensued as they acknowledged my presence, a woman stood and moved towards me, she looked young but motherly, and without asking questions she took me in her arms. Before I could blink, they were all around me, handshakes, hugs, laughter and a million ‘you’re welcome.’ My heart warmed the feeling was strange yet oddly familiar. The woman grabbed my hand ‘When was the last time you had a hot meal,’ she sang.
Soon a hot plate of food was placed before me, I hadn’t realized I was crying till I tasted salt in my mouth. Here it is! I thought people survived!!! Oh Bello will be so glad. While i devoured the food, they all sat in silence watching me. Tunde was standing by the corner his little red eyes fixed on me. I told them a little about Bello and i and how we’ve survived. Two young men volunteered to go back with me immediately and get Bello. I hesitated wondering if Bello would approve, the woman came to me

‘God loves you Nnam’ she said, ‘We are survivors like you and your friend, and here we stick together. We don’t live in despair, we know help will come, we survived for a reason, I joined them awhile back, others likewise. I was a registered nurse working in Enugu General Hospital before all this happened, I lost my family, but I haven’t lost my faith. Go with them and get your friend, we are stronger together, help will come my child.’ I looked into her warm eyes and for the first time I felt safe.                                                                                                         We got ready, taking flashlights and batteries, water and food and soon embarked on our journey to where Bello and I camped. As we walked, the men hummed in deep low tones.

We were now closer to where Bello and I camped. I felt light headed; I held a certain respect for the older man, after-all he did save my life.                                                                                    
We walked on, the men humming songs that were familiar and yet strange, finally we got there. The fire had since died, with the help of the flashlights we had I could see Bello was still sleeping in the car, I ran to him with joy.
Bello! I yelled as I climbed into the car.

He was motionless. Still in the same position I left him, I nudged him lightly to wake him up
No response

I called and nudged him over and over.
Nothing

Bello!  Fear seized my heart again, I had gotten used its iciness. I pushed him more violently now, he was out, cold! I felt my head growing big ,my knees melted away , my heart palpitated , I was trembling , I heard myself groan but it didn’t feel like me, it was an animalistic groan! My mind was befogged, I saw the men rush, I saw them push Bello, I saw them reach for his pulse, I saw them shake their head sadly and cover him up, they  were talking but I wasn’t listening, one touched my shoulder and said something, I nodded . All I could see was Bello’s face, his dark eyes, his crooked smile, I could see him dab my forehead nervously, I could hear his awkward grunts. I sat in the car for what seemed like hours, finally I was getting over the shock. Bello is dead. How unfair is life? He survived the worst only to die still. It seemed surreal. I looked around noticing that the men were still standing near the car.

‘There’s no means of burying him,’ the taller one said.
‘No shovels and there seem to be no way of improvising,’ he continued, we have to cover him up him here.

I packed the few necessary things we owned, stopping momentarily to look at him. I felt numb, it was obvious he was dead, and had been for a while too, was he dead when I was here I thought, and fear slid through again. I covered Bello completely, and closed the car door. I left the pen knife and lighter in his hands, and we prepared for our journey back. I still felt numb as we continued our journey back to the last days church.
 Perhaps there was still hope, perhaps we will all die just like Bello but the resilience of humans is what keeps us from perishing.

As we got closer to the last days church the tall one spoke
‘You know you never told us your name,’
‘Bello,’ I replied.

‘My name is Bello.’


(image from instagram)








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