If they took back the pain they caused you...

                                                           

Written by Onuzulike somtochukwu 

                 "IF THEY TOOK BACK THE PAIN
                  THEY CAUSED YOU....
                    YOU WILL LOSE THE STRENGTH
                       YOU'VE  GAINED! "
                                              -Dana Chanel
                                              (sprinkle of Jesus)

                                               

It happened again this morning

Time: 11.20 am

I actually heard the sound of my heart breaking. The scariest sound, quick and smooth, a sudden dizzy feeling followed as memories flooded my brain and hot tears fell freely.

 “You should have known happiness isn’t meant for you “

“You should have known that when he said he was going to take it up as a challenge to make you happy he lied”

“You should have known from past experiences that you’re an unlucky one”

Did you ever think you’d ever be happy?  My subconscious mocked on

I ran to my room and closed the door. Slumping behind it I wept bitterly, body bent in uncontrollable sobs, a heart wrenching, blood cuddling scream escaped my lips. Flashbacks of how many times I had done this played behind my heavy eyelids; for every heart break I had cried like a baby behind my door clutching my heart and wondering what i did wrong exactly.

Suicidal thoughts came flooding in but then my phone rang..

My mother!  I picked at once.

“Hello” I said struggling to control my quivering voice

“Ogini!”  She yelled in my native dialect instantly sensing the pain.

“Onwero”I replied, more in control of my emotions and the tears

Her voice was the only soothing pain reliever I needed.

“I am at the church; come the pastor wants to see you and whatever it is, God is in control” she said softly.

“Okay ma” I replied.

I ended the call and my phone beeped

MESSAGE FROM BESTIE

Bestie, you shouldn’t be heartbroken, He is not good enough for you

Don’t ever think you’re not OK or something

Believe me you’re a very nice person

The right man will meet you

He’ll treasure and adore you.

Fresh tears fell freely again as I typed a reply for her

“am really hurt , but its well. God is in control

Thank you, I will be fine”

I got an instant reply!

“You better be! He’s not worth your tears”

I smiled through the tears and thanked God silently for these beautiful people in my life.

 My best friend; always fiery, a pillar you can depend on especially in times like this. I smiled and dragged my body from where I had fallen

I stood straight…

I am standing again and for as long as my heart beats; I will always rise no matter how many times I fall.

Thank you for the pain you caused me, it only made me stronger.